The Casino
Maybe when the blue man walks out
of his blue house into blue light
and the glass woman’s glass eyes
are her mother’s eyes, and all
night long the little animals push their little
ambulances down the street,
maybe then I’ll drink my little glass
filled with ashes. When the deaf start speaking
and the deaf stop speaking and the deaf
can’t speak any more
is when the deaf start speaking and the deaf start
speaking and the deaf can’t sleep any more.
I guess that’s when you take up your icepick
and make all your icepick’s mistakes.
There’s a pocket knife somewhere on earth.
You use it. Then you go hunt in the river
so it moves as you move, speaks as you speak.
You can see your own chalk apparitions
in the water. Years later, you’re on
the Effects Channel and you look like a piece
of water. Something is causing me, you say.
Sometimes I think that there’s beauty
and sometimes I think that there’s beauty on drugs.
I think I feel my blood pushing on the pins
of the television. The casino drones on and on.
You say, the opposite of outside is more outside.
The opposite of inside is more outside.
I say in this moment absolutely everything
I ever wanted to say. There’s a fist outside
the size of a planet. I store my guts
in a trash bag and try to move on.
You’ve got your good things
and you’ve got mine. The TV is small.
I sleep with the brain of a cannibal but
I try not to move.
